Fuck y'all!

Jesus H. Christ, am I getting sick of all this army lack of information stuff. I called the guy who is helping me, and I asked him if the army had figured out my health profile yet. He said, "I already told you what your health profile is!" And I'm like, "No you didn't!" And he's like, "Fine, I think it's like 97 or somewhere around there." And I'm like, "Um, I don't think that's possible because first of all I'm extremely near-sighted, and second of all I have a few other issues. So...."
"Fine fine," he says, "I don't know. Ask me later."

Okay. Fine. Last week when I snapped at him for lack of information (not just that--but for being told every two days that all my questions would be answered in two days), one of hte things he said to me was, "Well look, if housing is a concern in all of this, then I can definitely help you find housing. It won't be a problem."

So today I said, "I'd like to live on a kibbutz during the army, so how do I arrange that? Could you help me a bit, just tell me who I need to contact?"

And rather than following up on the agreement to help me (which he obviously only said in order to get me to shut up), he told me to wait until I start the army (which is EXACTLY when I am no longer able to live in my current lodgings...) and then once I start they'll find me somewhere to live. I started arguing a bit saying that that makes things complicated and stressful,a nd could he please just tell me the name of someone I could talk to to get this settled and arranged now (which I know IS possible). And he just repeated to wait until I got to the army and they'd figure something out for me.

It's really pissing me off because all he had to do was get off his lazy ass and find me a fucking phone number. I wasn't asking him to make the phone calls for me, but all I was asking is if there is a central office for sending lone soldiers to kibbutzim, could he just tell me it. It also pisses me off because he was too fucking lazy to get off his fat ass and get me my health profile number. He said he didn't have it on him right now and that he'd find it later. I mean, I've been to his fucking office, I know it's small, and the information only could have been placed in a limited number of places, all of which can be reached FROM HIS FUCKING CHAIR!



Maybe I'm overreacting a bit, but this is kind of freaking me out. I'm stressed because in June I was told that I would be starting in August, and it's now August and I still have so many unanswered questions. And all this is......That's cutting it a bit close, don't you think? And it also pisses me off because then I have to move into a new place during weekend leaves from basic training or some shit like that, which strikes me as incredibly stressful--and also kind of impossible. There's little/NO public transport on the weekends, so how the fuck am I supposed to get all my shit to a new place on a weekend? I don't own a car and no one I know has a car (and anyway, asking someone to drive you a few hours here and back to a different kibbutz is a LOT to ask.)

fucking hell!

I'm just getting kind of sick of this, because with this whole program that is supposed to be HELPING me get into the army...I feel like I'm friggin Pius Aeneas, being buffeted around on the waves an' all that shit. I just want a straight answer from someone. Just give me my fucking health profile number, tell me exactly when in September I'm going in, and tell me who to fucking contact so that I'm not fucking HOMELESS when I start the army! Really, am I asking for a lot?

I took it into my own hands. I started calling secretaries in kibbutzim up north, but the problem is that I had trouble understanding the answering thing on the other side. ("Press one for ZKJSDOGJOSDIG, Press two for SDKGJSDKJGOSDIJGOSDg, Press three to shoot yourself because you can't understand...."). So now I've sent off a couple e-mails in my shit Hebrew to a couple kibbutzim. Fuck this shit. Thanks for all your help, agency whose job it is to help me with this shit.

Sorry for all this complaining. Just had to get it out there. I'm also hungry as shit because of the holiday today.


You know, I was just thinking that if i absolutely had to be an orthodox person, I'd want to be one of the Breslov people. But now i'm beginning to think I'm too angry to be one!