Crap. Am now leaning towards doing Ulpan Etzion in Jerusalem since that way I have fewer things to worry about, and also because it seems like I'll have an easier time getting my parents on board with that since it's a more academic-focused thing....and just a more focused thing in general in comparison to "I'm gonna go to haifa and eventually find housing and work, and maybe do some hebrew classes...."

Also, I think part of me just needs to accept a bit of help. For example, I didn't do a nefesh b'nefesh flight cos I wanted to be independent. That's no big deal, but when it comes to long-term living arrangements I need to be willing to go the easy route.


ALSO: I keep having nightmares about my arrival in Israel. I keep having dreams that I got into a taxi at the airport and ended up at my chosen destination in the country (some dreams it's been Haifa, others it's Jerusalem)....and then I realize that I forgot to go through the process at the airport for olim. So then I realize that I'm not an olah, and that I'm totally fucked. And then I wake up. Seriously, I've had this dream four times now.