okay, slightly pissed off because i spent the last two/three months trying very hard to forgive my roommate for her night screaming, her moodiness, her thoughtlessness (talking on her phone when I'm in bed trying to sleep), not replacing things like toilet paper when she's used the last bit, her blasting her DVDs on her computer when I'm in the room trying to study, and her insistence on smoking in the room even though I told her I have lung/blood problems, etc etc..... I said to myself, You know self, you probably piss her off with various things you do, so just try to forgive her for her faults and in return she'll forgive your faults.

turns out she was NOT forgiving my faults all this time. turns out that since pretty much day one she's been bitching to the "House Mother" about various things she hates about me. Which, I'm not going to lie, makes me feel very betrayed. I don't like that there is a fat Russian woman who knows about all of my problems.

so now ive been giving the option of switching rooms. which i think i will. but im just very upset about the whole thing. never in my life have i had a serious problem with a roommate. I think I've had something like 6, and even more if you count various sleep away camps. my policy has always been, "well, i'll forgive her for her failure to clean out the fridge of some really nasty old food she left in there, if she'll forgive me for not opening up the bathroom window after taking a shower to let the steam out." I've had some weird roommates in the past, but this....this is different.

also, can i just say that i spent a large part of my weekend cleaning out our room? i knew that she didn't like my disorder, so i decided to have a nice surprise for her when she came back from her weekly outingi really made an effort to clean up my stuff and sweep up the floor, and scrub the toilet until it sparkled, and washed the bathroom floor, and organized the kitchen and took out all the trash and etc etc..... and she comes back from the weekend and doesn't even say anything. she just glares at me angrily. i didn't fucking do anything wrong! which i think just makes her a bitch.