Oh great, now that I had that whole talk with my mom on the phone, she's now like, "I HAVE TO FLY OUT TO CHICAGO RIGHT NOW TO TALK TO YOU IN PERSON!!!" so now i feel terrible like im causing so much chaos that my mother has to fly out immediately to see me. and she was like, "You sounded sad, so i want to spend some time with you" which made me feel lame and baby-like...